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20 July 2013

Just another one of "those" days. . .


Seriously, this shit is getting annoying.



I try to push through those days, keep up with my routine. I'm just so drained today. Mentally and physically empty. Bleh. I try to keep a good attitude and hold on to all the positive things going on in my life. To keep what is really important, close to me and try not to lose sight of what I should be thankful for. Some may not understand me, but that's okay. I'm not looking for sympathy. I don't want it. Who is that really going to help? Especially when I feel like I don't deserve it. I try to remember that there are people out there who are worse off. I'm not even bad off. My brain likes to tell me I am. I hate even expressing these moods. I feel so guilty complaining because I know I shouldn't. Life is hard for everyone. WE ALL ENCOUNTER THESE BUMPS IN THE ROAD!! WHY SHOULD I BE ANY DIFFERENT?  Why do I allow this to happen? The truth is, I don't allow it. It intrudes. It's an unwelcome guest that you wish would have at least called first before showing up at your door. I just have to deal with it, with a positive attitude and a smile on my face.

When I get those "good vs bad" thoughts, Instead of feeling like i'm having a stupid conversation in my head, I like to imagine them in a battle. In an epic DANCE-OFF battle! Or even one of those "Yo Momma" joke battles! If you see me laughing at myself, just ignore it. The point is, I try to find humor in the bad, even if it's all in my head. It's the only way I make it out of the other side feeling great and ready to fight on another day. My kids certainly help with that humor! They are so funny! They seem to know these moods and try to make me smile and laugh. . .they certainly do a wonderful job! I don't exactly like expressing much to my husband on days like this. He is halfway around the world, and is already dealing with enough. I really don't want to add to his plate.

I always hold on to some sort of hope. If the feeling doesn't go away today, there is always a fresh start tomorrow. There is always something to look forward to.

For those who listen, or read this, thanks for giving me the chance to vent. <3

4 comments:

  1. Praying for you Sis! And that unwanted guest is satan! Pure and simple! Put your trust in Jesus and He will provide what you need! Love you, hoping your day gets better!

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  2. When I get down my kids are usually the one to cheer me up as well. Here's praying that your weekend gets better. ((virtual hugs))

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    1. Kids can drive you nuts but be the best medicine at the same time! lol Thank you! ((Returning hugs)) :)

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